urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:sexyinasuit a Reno Sinclair journal Reno Sinclair 2006-01-28T17:31:52Z urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:sexyinasuit:1060 2006-01-28T15:23:38Z 2006-01-28T17:31:52Z I had sex yesterday for the first time in over a week-- a new record for me, really, considering. It was quick, rough, and kind of messy. The way I usually get it done. But, it felt almost like... Like a job. <strike>Like back when I wasn't a Turk, and I was somethin' else.</strike><br /><br />Don't get me wrong. I like Sloth. I like him a lot, and I trust him. <strike>Which is a goddamn lot, seein' as I can't say that for everyone I like these days.</strike> But, it was like I was repaying a debt. When <strike>Roy</strike> <strike>the Colo</strike> <strike>Must</strike> Roy first, y'know, approached me, I told him 'no.' Tryin' to change my ways, and stuff. Then the guys goes and dies protectin' my kid.<br /><br />Should I feel bad for feeling relieved that he wanted to have sex with me? So that I could make my own conscience feel better?<br /><br />I'm so fucked up sometimes. Right now, really.<br /><br />...But, God, he told me he loves me. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:sexyinasuit:840 2006-01-27T05:41:09Z 2006-01-27T05:41:09Z ...I think I like him. As more than a friend.<br /><br />Is that wrong? <strike>Do I care? <br /><br />...Maybe I just miss Rufus.</strike>